Sisters

My sisters are wonderful they really are, I have to ask myself why do I feel like the biggest failure around them. They don't say anything really I just get the feeling that they are thinking " Oh that Heather what is she doing now she is probably going to fail at it she always try's to do more than she can handle." We had girls night out and it was fun and there was wonderful food my sisters and especially my sister in law can cook really well. There was pleasant conversation and nobody was rude to anyone else. I love being around my sisters, but sometimes I just hate it I don't feel like I belong I feel out of the loop. I come home from these parties and just cry I really think something is wrong with me. I love my sisters no one could ask for better I really have a wonderful family they are so kind to me and they include me in things. I guess that in a family of overachievers there has to be one failure I just wish it wasn't me. I am doing the best I can and one thing I am doing is sticking with things I tend to be a scatterbrain and go in many directions at once and that is what gets me in trouble I know I can do better I know I can. Andrew deserves a better wife, Hunter deserves a better mother, my sisters deserve a better sister, and my parents deserve a better daughter. Heck even I deserve to be a better me and I know I can be. I am trying to be consistent at one thing and that is to write in this blog I hope that someday I can print it off and know how far I have come.